EMO

yea...emo-ing...but i took effort about wat john n samuel suggested la...i should disable and uninstall programs one-by-one till i realise the error.....

And btw...ty for those who willingly spare their time to read my blog...plus my blog is deserted since ths prob started in december last year...juz tat i keep formatting and installin all the stuff bac without testing if there is other prob...

Here is my prob....my vista sometimes may load perfectly...no problem 1....but horr....sometimes will load and load non stop...but no reaction de la...but the loading thingy stil there....means there is an error!..rawr!...then i may ned to select under last known good config then only it can start..well sometimes hor...even worse...i may hav to start in safe mode then restart only can...in last several cases....i can't even do anytthing to go bac into my usual vista...then i reformat...nw this porb haven come about la...*god bless*...finding for solution....any help??...ask around plz..

btw...emo-ing la...can see mi a bit down these days?....yea...tis prob is giving me trouble!

I m realli lost

LOST...not the movie though...same thingy juz like repeating....

My com showed my the same problem...luckily tis time haven show the chronic problem only...now stil okla...lets see wats the dam mistake i made@!!..zzz..whether is my mistake or wat..its killin me la..zz...can i juz die off???

I m hope..

I hope we no ned to sleep to regain energy...cos i dam tired...and my karangan is stil like 1/4 to go b4 i reach penutup...btw.i hate ending my karangan abruptly..smile*

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Tagged by JiaSen

Directions :
Once you have been tagged, you have to write a post with sixteen random things, habits or goals about you.

At the end, choose five people to be tagged, listing their names and why you chose them.

Don't forget to leave a comment (who u tagged tagged, and to read your blog, you can't tag a person who tagged you).

1. I can't live 1 day without talking to somebody...means i canot be lonely
2. I emo very frequently
3. I am a paranoid about my pc n internet...i must hav them in good condition to survive
4. I love biology but also hav skills in physics...which brought me into a dilemma to chose a career
5. Love my family
6. Hope to be rich
7. I wish all my actions will be bless and done prefectly
8. Hate novels
9. I always hope someone will hear what i wanted to say when i needed them
10. I hate homework
11. I always lost myself in my own thoughts
12. I cannot accept the fact that human are the best creation of god...because nobody is perfect yet(except god).
13. I enjoy tea more than coffee
14. I actually procrastinate a lot before doing something.
15. I always wear a mask in front of several teachers which i hate
16. I need my brother for his knowledge..but i hate him sometimes for no reason....==

Okay...i dunno wat to say...i juz done it!...but i don't feel like tagging anyone...smile*

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Izit fair?..Why me!

Sometimes in our miserable life...we tend to ask the question above......same here..i duno y la...sometimes..bad things happen to my computer or internet..and i get distracted a lot.....easily emo n ponder about tis question again and again....wait...tis is emo-ing...(kinda)

Same to my friends....juz like kai chi...he might ask the same question...why me!!....as his life is sometimes kinda miserable...(go read his emo blog)...kesian him...i always get good luck with strangers..lol....bac to main topic..

I read this story somewhere....it seems...a prisoner..imprisoned for like 5 years..but he was innocent...he told a monk who once visited the prison(some sort like a counselor)..he monk trusted him...well...he told the monk he felt so bad....and he always asked the same question.."why me??"

Then he monk asked him...izit fair?...well..he said no....then he thinked again.....for a long time...it is almost certain to us that he was unfairly judged...but he said again...it was fair.....wanna know the reason?....well..he said...mayb he was punished in return for mistakes he did in the past....who knows...u might escape ur mistakes today but punished heavily tomorrow....understand..all u hav to do is recall the past and think again...then u will realised wat u hav done is wrong.....if u r realli done nothing wrong...then i might juz be a test of god....smile*

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I dunno wat to say

U guys( my skol friends) saw the new old lady at the chinese rice stall in our canteen....kesian her la...i heard the story from steven..i think its very sad to see ur own grandma working there...haizz...i even turned my face from her when i m buying food...or i feel so bad for her..she is old..slow...and she look fatigued...

For old ppl to do that....she sacrificed a lot....hope her doins can undo the mistakes done by her grandchild....for ur info...her grandson is chow wai soon...i feel speechless....

Why must she end up like tis??...i think she is realli innocent from the story steven told me....but to me...it is already too late to undo mistakes in form 5...its impossible to start in form 5....unless...u hav a genius teacher and u hav a realli determined mind set for u to surpass the time limit of 10 months....SPM...

If u don't understand this post...u may ignore.....well if u r my skol friend...plz....take the initiative to find out the real story behind the reason y this old lady hav to work so hard...kinda touching and realli tell u to work hard.....i can't tell u....cos i promised steven....i m a good secret keeper...even if u treaten me......smile*

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Fragile

I just wanna share tis with all of those who read my blog...u see......i was stuck at the ktm station when my train came to the station...i juz sat inside for like 20 mins but the ktm is stil not moving...i can tell the ktm is not havin problem...it must be other station

Well later it has been anounced...there are something happened at segambut station....then i HEARD SOME RUMOURS...it seems that there was a ppl died!....y?....hit by a ktm gua..( it means he was crossing the track)...well i was kinda shocked...after that 20 mins i continued my journey la....on the way...i was wondering whether if it is true...well rumour are stil rumour...and the best part is i saw a malay lady kinda lke crying...then i thought mayb coincidently she is the family member of the ppl who go hit by that ktm....as i reach segambut station....i saw nothing....it means is not true..well....then the lady did not lost a family member...however...this made me recalled about someone

He is my granduncle...haizz..he jus pass away on last friday i think...he is realli a nice man u noe....realli fun to talk to...joke wit him.....the last time when we saw him healthily was during the wedding lunch last year on october....then i got another news in december that he had some problems with his spine being straight which caused tremendous pain....wat a suffering...when i met him during a christmas party...i can see he is realli in pain......he need a pillow to cushion is bac when he sits....he kinda lost his voice( very coarse voice)....then i heard from my grandaunt that he kinda prefer to lye down to prevent the pain....haizzzz

The worse part comes...this year chinese new year...he wasn't there....he was admitted into the hospital...now it seems she have lung cancer!....when my mum asked about him to my grandaunt..she burst into tears IMMEDIATELY..i realli can't help to feel sad like she does....uncle mike( my granduncle)...was a realli nice man...it seems to be a bit quite without his laughter in the hall of the main family.....then, i heard the news about his death on last friday...my mum went to pay her last respect at night...but she din bring us there as it is stil CNY...(within the first 15 days)...i was at home...wit no one..i felt lonely too!...for no reason....i juz lost my senses...not tat i m sad but i placed myself in the shoes of my grandaunt...i can remember the time when she broke into tear....now i m also thinking about my mother's feeling when my father died.......when my mum came bac from the funeral.....she told me some history during my father's death....

But she was very calm...mayb after my father's death...she already had her tears dried up......she told me..the day my father died..she was workin...her colleague accompanied her to visit my father..but my mum kinda see father seems to hav something wrong....then after awhile she called her friends(colleague) to go bac home....it was true indeed...my father died on that day...then my mum did all the procedure to claim his body...by the time the body was sent to the funeral place...it was already midnight....my second sis and i was not at home...we were at my babysitter's place..

According to my second sister...the next day is a saturday...and we are supposed to go back home....however my babysitter received a call...then my babysitter got the bad news...she told my sis that my mum wont be cmin bcos something happened to my my father ...she was sad(she knew he died)...but i was only 3...i can't understand much thing yet..and i m stil happily plying with my toys...while my father is dead....all i can remember is this...

My mum crying....my grandaunt crying...many ppl tat i duno is there(the funeral)....i was curious to see a big house made up of paper there...and a box of course..and i even asked my mum..."wats tis?'...she answered me that my father is goin to live there soon....i did not cry...over time..i realised tat my father is dead....only when i noe i don't hav a father like the others...in fact i was kinda happy thatmy father died...but i m sad to see my mother suffer during that time..Now that we can see life is fragile...i can just die now can u can jus die there too....

WE NEED TO UNDERSTAND 1 THING

Treasure ur loved ones before they are gone...especially like ur parent( in this case..mum)

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It has been long

Yea im kinda back...bz lately.....and i can't promise more post in the future la...duno y so bz lately...with my pc la......well tis happened to me today while i was in the bus on my way home.

I was sleeping...then i heard people shouting in the bus for certain reasons...then i watched..it seems that there are bad indian students( i m not a racist)...it seems that they are blocking the exit and it triggered the angry part of a middle aged indian man(i guess)..then the indian man was shouting at him....with this words

MASUKLAH!! DALAM BANYAK TEMPAT TAK MAU MASUK...( 3 times plzz)

Just imagine with ur vast imagination...the shout can wake me up from a deep sleep like 1.5 away...wa....then the middle aged guy when down the bus...the bus continued its journey...everyone seems to be quiet while these indian boys remained happy and stil shouting around!...my god..imagine me in the bus.....then i suspected that those indian boys actually spilted half b4 i woke up...cos there are also a gang 2 seats behind me that keep shouting...

BANG!!( THE DRIVER) PANDU LAMBAT SIKI LAAAA...(2 seperate times...)

Y did i say so?... cos those indians at the door are shouting to those at the back of me....then another comes..this time...a men when down....but after he went down he looked at those indian whose blocked the exit with a killin intention la...mayb those indian did something to him....then imagined wat will happen if i m in his shoe(the man who went down the bus)....well....i futhered my imagination...if he did that...i will reply with only 2 words......**** off...plz pardon my vulgarism la...but i can;t imagine wat will happen if they came down the bus to pick a fight...

I cannot imagine whether will i be able to beat them or not la.....mayb icould..but i might have some damage too....but if i can beat them up...that the end of their normal life...cos i will act like my brother said

IF U ARE FIGHTING WITH MORE THAN 1 FOE...HIT THEM HARD TO MAKE SURE THEY CAN'T HIT U THE SECOND TIME....

Then i will be aiming all the vital parts....violent-nya...my main reason tellin this is......to ask wat will u do if u r realli disturbed by tis kind of ppl.....but at last....nth happened to me la ...smile*

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